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so last night i ended up having two smoothies (300k) and buffalo wings (200k). for a total of 1500k yesterday.

today i had mickey d’s! i’m so horrible, but i don’t feel guilty…it was def. out of the ordinary though and right now i feel like i’m gonna hurl :/

i had my normal egg sandwhich and cheese, granola bar throughout the day.  then for lunch i had buffalo wings and a luna bar which totals to about 900k.  for some reason, i just don’t feel like cooking, so after work i go straight to mickey d’s and get the crispy chicken with fries and iced coffee. it was good, but i feel icky now…

anyways, i’m off to rest a bit before seeing my therapist.  what luck, what luck…

Good evening,

Today I got my results from the Meyers Briggs test I took yesterday.  I am an Estj.  Extrovert/sensing/thinking/judging.  Pretty cool, huh!  i’m realizing more and more that as i learn more about myself and my character, i understand better why i feel the way i feel when certain things happen, etc. as well as my inclinations and preferences towards certian things.  It makes sense, though, because i don’t really hang out with friends during the week, it’s all usually during the weekend.  and the thought of the weekend, hanging out with people i love just really gives me energy.  even the thought of that! so i know that i’m gonna have to make some friends in the city i live in, via church and extracurric’s.  eventually and in my own timing. i kind of want to get things settled with my emotional state first though.

What did I eat today? hmm…I had my eggwhich this a.m. (300k) then during the day an apple, cheese, granola bar (300k) then came home and had two tomatoes and half an avo (250) then a mango (150) 1000 cal’s so far.  maybe i’ll have a smoothie or something else that’s light.  not too hungry right now but it’s only 5 p.m.

i’m gonna go watch a tv show then read up more about my other possible meyers/briggs personality combinations. keep on trekkin, everyone!

today was a great day at work, very mellow because some of the work got shifted around.  i got to catch up with the stuff that i had to complete, (projects) but nothing new really came my way, so all day was a catch up day! wonderful.

also, i went to a myers-briggs seminar that was held by my work, so i’m excited to see the results of that test.  these days, i am way into learning more about my personality and behavior so i know why i think the way i think and why i feel the way i feel.

this morning i overslept about 30 minutes, so eating was off.  for breakfast i had an apple, for lunch a granola bar, later string cheese, then yet again another granola bar.  total was about 400k by around 5 p.m. not good

for dinner i had 2 tomatoes and 1/4 avo i don’t know how many calories that is, i would assume 200? i don’t know.  then after that i had more chips (300k) then the rest of the espresso ice cream (400?) so i would estimate about 1300k again.  though the calorie number was good, i know i need to be eating more of the healthy stuff.  hey, but all the junk in my house is gone now, so no more of that processed foods in my house unless i have people over

one thing that will help is if i buy food in individually wrapped packages.  like when i bought the tofuttis from trader joe’s, since they were individually wrapped, it really helped me not to eat too much.  but with a carton of ice cream, i honestly can’t resist that extra spoonful!

so here’s the plan for the rest of this week:

am. eggwhich, as usual (300)

p.m. cheese, granola bar, apple (300)

p.m. chicken stir fry (300)

mango or smoothie (200)

totalling about 1100 calories. 

it’s so hard, because i have about 10 pounds to go, but i know it will take a long time, maybe a couple months.  i know i beat the hardest part, finally, which was controlling myself and not binging.  but when it comes to losing weight, that is really a day by day thing!!!!  and i know from the past, if i work out 4 or 5 times a week (incorporating both weights and cardio daily) i will lose weight soo fast! so soon enough, i’m certain that i will get there, but it will take time and hard work.  so for right now, continue to focus on the healthy eating…and i know eventually i’ll get the motivation and energy to start working out seriously. 

last night, after my last post, i had so much chips and espresso ice cream it’s embarrassing! i had so much espresso ice cream that i didn’t fall asleep until 4:30 this morning, and i woke up at 7.  so yeah, i was tired when i woke up this a.m., but it wasn’t too bad.  i wasn’t tired from not sleeping so much as the work day was so hectic at work today.  everyone was frustrated with everyone, there was a shortage of workers, so i had to work harder especically. it sucked. oh well, it’s over now.

but i am really beginning to branch out again.  in college, i was to social butterfly, meeting friends here and there, going to barbecues, organizing parties and celbrating birthdays.  but now that i live on my own, a lot of depression and anxiety has hit me…

but today i went jogging with an old college friend, we jogged about 4 miles, i just felt bad because she really had to slow down her pace to keep up with me.  so i think i’m just gonna stick to hiking when it comes to working out with her.  we talked and chatted, and she lives so close by that we’re going to hang out more.  it’s really a change for me, because normally i’ve been just going home and isolating myself from the world…

i realize i can’t do that anymore, so on top of seeking weekly therapy, i’m looking into going to a church in my town (the church i’ve been going to is far) where i’ll go to bible studies once a week and meet friends there as well.  just be the life of the party again. oh, how i wish i were a child again and i had none of these complicated mental/emotional disorders….

today was quite good otherwise.  i ate my usual egg sandwhich (300k) then lunch i went to jamba juice with a coworker and i would estimate i had 300k.  then i had a granola bar for snack (140) then chips (400, eek!) and buffalo wings (200) and a rice drink (200).  so about 15-1600 k today.  little over than my goal, but i’ll get down to 1300 tomorrow.  since i’ve been talking to people about my problems and seeking therapy, i really don’t beat myself up when i mess up anymore.  i just take it with a grain of salt and use it to help me grow. 

so yes, tomorow i will eat 1300k and work out for an hour. i still need to journal a bit and spend time with God tonight, but that will be really good for me.

Hello, everyone!

Ah, another weekend has just about gone by, and I’m actually savoring every last minute that’s left of it. I look forward to my nap, then finishing up some work as soon as I publish this blog.

Today was awesome! I went to church in the a.m., then I went with my parents to Costco and did some other light shopping. (got my blender for my smoothies now, yay!)

So this morning, first thing, I ate probably a quarter of a bag of multigrain pita chips from Trader Joe’s and a reese’s klondike bar (these can be dangerous).  Then I had some samples at costco (a cookie, a chicken wing,) then a rice drink (270k).  Got home, had about 10 ounces of smoothie i whipped up with my new blender.  in it was ice, soy milk, frozen berries, and apple.  it was really really good, just like jamba juice! then i had some chicken and veggie soup with a couple spoonfuls of rice, and 5 pieces of corn tortilla chips. 

it’s always harder to eat on the weekends, because i don’t have hte structure of my 5 day work week.  plus, i have visitors come and go to my house, and i end up eating out with friends.  that can make it hard, though i did well this weekend.  so i guess i’ll just have to organize my weekend eating better and find a way to plan that better.

this week, my goal is as follows: 

eat 1300-1400 k/day

exercise for 30 min/day

spend time with God 30m/day

journal/leisure reading daily

I think it really helps to have these weekly goals.  I would love to lose one or two pounds this week, and I’m hoping that with incorporating more scheduled exercise, that can happen.  Have a great week, everyone!

i wasn’t able to post yesterday, way too busy! so i’ll recap yesterday right now…

my mom slept over on frid. night so saturday morning we shared a mango plus yogurt with blueberries.  it was yum! then i took my mom to the train station, she went and visited my grandma.  and i went out on a hike with my best girlfriends.  we went on a really hilly trail, which was wonderful! before that, we had lunch, mine consisted of a pbj, string cheese, 1/2 an apple, a handful of cheez-its. yum!

then i came home and had some pita chips and a klondike reese’s peanut butter bar. yum! then dinner, which was healthy, chicken/brocoli/mushroom/green bean stir fry, with brown/grain rice.  then dessert again, which was 2 small scoops of coffee ice cream.  i feel like i ate way too much yesterday, but on the other hand, i know i wasn’t out of control, it wasn’t a binge at all.  so i feel good about that, as i am just learning (after 5 years) to control my hunger and not binge.  i think a lot of that comes out of having a strong support group, friends and a therapist that i talk to about emotional hurts and hangups. so yesterday was pretty healthy, but i suppose i just really need to watch it when it comes to eating processed foods.  because i know i ate too many, but oh well…

more to come…

i am so so happy it’s friday.  had an extremely long week at work. this weekend the only concrete plans i have are to hang out with a group of friends on saturday to go hiking.  we will each bring our own bag lunch to eat, so eating junk is not an issue, yay.

i am very slowly losing weight, i have lost 3 pounds in two weeks.  i know i can lose more if i work out, but have not had the energy.  i want to wake up in the a.m. and do an hour of cardio each morning before work.  but how do you wake up?? any ideas?  no matter how early i sleep, i always sleep in until the moment i need to wake up for work.  and after i come home from work, i’m just way too tired.  hm. i don’t know what to do.

let’s see, what did i eat today.  this a.m. i had a pbj with a glass of soymilk (500k) then during the day i had a piece of cheese and a granola bar(200k) then for dinner i had chicken nuggets (300) plus yogurt w/ fruit. (200) so about 1300 k pretty good but gotta work out!

today was tiring again.  i think i’m just ready for friday.  this weekend will be great; friday night i’m going to go to the gym and do a full-on 45minutes of cardio and then 45 min to an hour of lower body strengthening. saturday is my best friend’s birthday, so we’re going hiking during the day.  and then either before or after that, i’m going to do chest/back/shoulder strength.  sunday i’ll do more cardio then arm strength training.  it’ll be a great weekend.

after work today i went to my very first therapy session.  my therapist seemed okay, very nice, very proffesional.  but for some reason, i think he was too professional.  almost a little cold.  but as most therapists are, he was very insightful and i was able to discern many things about my past and about why i do certain things that i do.  and of course, about healing past emotional pains.

my food intake today was also great! little variation.  same breakfast as yesterday (400k) then throughout the day i had pepperjack cheese (yum!), a granola bar, and an apple, and soy milk. (400k) then for dinner i had chicken nuggets and 2 tofuttis.  (480) so just about 1300 calories today again.  the only thing is i would have loved to exercise.  i need to incorporate more exercise into my life, other than the planned weekend workouts that i’m pretty sure i can get to, but scared that i won’t.  i don’t want to keep making excuses for myself…

hello and good evening to all my friends and blog readers.

i’m here to report on my day.  before i begin, can i just say that i am so enjoying daily blogging about my nutrition/exercise, and emotional state. it really makes a difference in terms of keeping me accountable and getting and giving encouragement to others.

today i ate my usual breakfast eggsandwhich, although i had a cup of soy milk to go along with it.  then i had an apple, granola bar, and yogurt for lunch.  dinner was a salad and tj’s chicken nuggets.  and 2 tofutti’s.  i consumed about 1300 calories today.  and i did run for 2.75 miles at the gym at lunchtime today.  although i think working out at lunchtime may not work…i love the idea of it, but i worry about not having enough time to shower or workout, about working up too much of a sweat, and about reapplying all of my makeup, etc…so i think kama recommended trying to get in a.m. workouts, so i’ll try to wake up early enough to do that….that’s always hard, but i know it reaps the best results.  i did it for about a month last year and i felt the greatest doing it. 

next week it shouldn’t be so hot, so even if i can’t work out in the morning i can always work out in the p.m., since the heat won’t kill me.  so i suppose the rest of this week, i’m just gonna aim for a.m. runs, even if it’s only a couple miles.  then i’ll try to still do weights frid-sunday. 

oh, something sad happened today…i think i left my lock at the gym so i have to go back and look for it at the lost and found or buy another one.  what a bother!

I slept great last night (10 hours!!) woohoo, although i hardly got any sleep over the weekend cuz i was busy socializing and spending time with friends.  so that was great.  i ended up not being able to go to the gym today because at lunchtime i had to finish up some work that i knew i couldn’t come home to because i had a dentist appointment after work.  after work, i went to the dentist, then i went downtown and did a little bit of shopping.  it was fun, i love post 4th of july sales.  i got a purple winter cardigan that was marked way down cuz it’s like 110 degrees over here!

i did well with food.  breakfast was the same as yesterday, then i had a granola bar and an apple throughout the day at work.  and then i had some chicken nuggets from trader joe’s for dinner along with a cranberry/avo/tomato/pine nut salad.  then two tofuttis.  i need to be eating more while at work, though it is so difficult because we hardly get any breaks. i’m always working.  i guess i have to learn how to reorganize things.

as far as workouts go, i think if i don’t work out at lunchtime, it probably won’t get done.  so i really need to find a way to work out at lunchtime, even if it means working later into the evening at work or taking work home with me.  because like today, since i didn’t workout at lunch, i end up not doing it.  not because i don’t have time, but because at this point it’s too hot to even step outside my house, and i’m way too tired from a full day of work to workout.  but oh well, that’s the beauty of each day having a night — you start afresh the next day and try not to repeat your mistakes!

i’m gonna go to bed soon, after i finish some printing for work.  i’m going to wake up early in the a.m. to do some extra housecleaning, because it is way too hot to do any housework at all after i come home from work.  hope everyone’s doing great! stay cool and hydrated!